After a few years break, I am back on the blog!
This year, I’m in sort of a unique place spiritually and in regular life (not that they’re supposed to be separate). The Lord recently told me, after finally just being still (I literally stumbled across stillness in the act of journaling) that I am a beginner at stillness. Now I’m hearing Him say I’m designed to be stll. Now that definitely runs contrary to our productive-happy culture here in America. Believe me, I believe productivity is good and I WANT desperately to be productive – ti’s been engrained in me since I was a child. And yet knowing I should be productive doesn't always motivate me to get there.
What I think the Lord might be trying to teach me (and perhaps those who are reading as well) is that the best kind of productivity – the truest product – doesn’t always come from just “trying harder.”
I would love to say I know what the key is, but God actually hasn’t shown me yet. So I don’t want to get ahead of myself.
What He has shown me (and I think I need to remind myself of this) is that it is OKAY to be a beginner. I think subconsciously I’ve always hated being a beginner. In fact so much so that somewhere along the line I convinced myself I don’t need to be a beginner. I can just skip straight to expert. I imagine the Lord up in heaven saying to me “Whoa! Hold your horses.”
One thing He is teaching me is that it's okay to not only BE a beginner but to EMBRACE being a beginner. As a beginner you get to build on the simple things. I love the process of growth - I think it's amazing to see anyone improve at anything. The growth process is beautiful, and almost miraculous!
Anyway, today has not been an ideal day of stillness (I'm seeing what stillness does NOT look like) but that's ok. MIstakes are not the end of the world (as my friend once told me, failure doesn't even exist in God's book). So thanks for listening – I hope you come back some time, or check out some of my other posts. Have a great day!
This year, I’m in sort of a unique place spiritually and in regular life (not that they’re supposed to be separate). The Lord recently told me, after finally just being still (I literally stumbled across stillness in the act of journaling) that I am a beginner at stillness. Now I’m hearing Him say I’m designed to be stll. Now that definitely runs contrary to our productive-happy culture here in America. Believe me, I believe productivity is good and I WANT desperately to be productive – ti’s been engrained in me since I was a child. And yet knowing I should be productive doesn't always motivate me to get there.
What I think the Lord might be trying to teach me (and perhaps those who are reading as well) is that the best kind of productivity – the truest product – doesn’t always come from just “trying harder.”
I would love to say I know what the key is, but God actually hasn’t shown me yet. So I don’t want to get ahead of myself.
What He has shown me (and I think I need to remind myself of this) is that it is OKAY to be a beginner. I think subconsciously I’ve always hated being a beginner. In fact so much so that somewhere along the line I convinced myself I don’t need to be a beginner. I can just skip straight to expert. I imagine the Lord up in heaven saying to me “Whoa! Hold your horses.”
One thing He is teaching me is that it's okay to not only BE a beginner but to EMBRACE being a beginner. As a beginner you get to build on the simple things. I love the process of growth - I think it's amazing to see anyone improve at anything. The growth process is beautiful, and almost miraculous!
Anyway, today has not been an ideal day of stillness (I'm seeing what stillness does NOT look like) but that's ok. MIstakes are not the end of the world (as my friend once told me, failure doesn't even exist in God's book). So thanks for listening – I hope you come back some time, or check out some of my other posts. Have a great day!